thoughts from leah.

Life...
Brent is still working hard at his 2 jobs so we can save money.
I am still working at Panera and going to school full time
and kitty tore up brents headphones last night (she is in the dog house) HA

today for me is a contemplative day.... so im not saying what i am saying to offend people, its just what I think. the subject is teenage pregnancy. when did people get so careless about babies. I am married at 18, but the first thing I did 3 months prior to marriage is a 3 year birth control implant. 50% of my close friends from high school are pregnant or have had kids... and so many MARRIED young people are just popping out the babies. I just don't understand what people are thinking, do people really think that is the sole purpose of life, just get married and have a "eternal" family. What about education, what about goals, what about learning your spouse as an individual for AT LEAST a year before you just start burning out kids. Dont get me wrong, stuff happens, and when you arent careful there really isnt anything you can do after the fact. for example, birth control fails and you have a baby... okay. but some people are trying it or just not doing anything to prevent it. seriously, do 16-20 year old mothers really think this is what its all about? some people really don't think at all. what about the fact you will probrably struggle for most of your life unless you have serious parental help and you will never go to school. or that your kid is gonna grow up and not go to school because they think that this is the way to go because of what you did, leading by example. people walk around with there pregnant pictures and gloat about there tiny babies in there 1 bedroom apartments and think this is some sort of divine intervention. what it really means, is you didn't use the technology that was provided for you so that YOU and your husband could have a future. the husband who now work 2 jobs to support there wives and kids so she can stay at home and change diapers and dust shelves. and that they will probrably work in some factory or car dealership foreverrrr and never fufill there educational or career inspired goals. what about the husbands years down the road when all the kids are gone, and you don't know him without them... and he realizes that stuff sucks and his jobs sucks and hes miserable, then what? what happens when they leave..... you just keep dusting wishing you had something to fall back on, but you don't because you never went to school.
these are just the things that I think about. i think about everyday how grateful i am to have thought and have been taught and be able to go to school and work hard to get stuff done. this doesnt mean that i dont see the bigger picture, because i do. life is all about family, i love my family. my mom is a 39 year old student, and she is doing things right. my dad is just trying to find himself and what he wants to do. they raise 2 handicapped children as their own and my brother and never take a breath. but growing up school is what she stressed, college, and my dad even more stressed college... i love kids, i want them someday when i am can build them a house and afford a babysitter. but until then its about priorities, it has nothing to do with being "wordly" it has to do with wanting to help people, be a doctor, raise my kids comfortably and truely know my husband.


so heres the advice... adopt a cat. they love you just the same :)